Persuasion

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Happy New Year!

Flooded with photos of the East Coast
My adult children living their dreams,
Momma watching from afar. Left smiling.
Changes in 2026 appear wrapped, for me, waiting for them to reveal themselves quietly.
Pleasant little gifts,
Sat in a corner by the Christmas tree.
Which one will she chose first,
The green one, his.
Thoughts settle on you,
Remember when I told you –
I believe we were meant to be?
Seems silly. Writing into the air.
My heart knows and has succumbed
To wait, what will be isn’t for me to chase.
I decided this time, men do the choosing,
The wise mystics of days gone by say,
You’ll know when you feel it.
I fear, maybe my life is supposed to be this way. Alone, yet, I desire for so much more. May it be so.

After years in Children’s Ministry I retired a few months ago. Life has been weird, and very busy. Dreams of what’s next fill my eyes, yet, I spin with what ifs. I passed an incredibly hard test two days ago. Proving I can do hard things, and win.  The world is my oyster, they say, but simple girls want simple things. Hoping more time for writing and poetry to sit strongly in my lap once again. Maybe my favorite book, by Jane Austen, needs re-reading.

Photo is from the day of my test. The sunset was a gift. God will always be with me. I hope I’ve made you proud. I pray you’re all happy.

Sending my love.
Yours,

Aud

Reunited

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While on my own, I rediscovered

pieces of who I am.

My heart leapt,

my soul weakened in reverence,

towards a pursuit, I’d maybe forgotten,

or possibly, extinguished

even discarded because I was different.

Small moments,

where,

I proved to be –

a someone. Found,

amongst many.

I saw you, too.

 

– Learning –  

a collection of photos and poems.

To Get To You

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My favorite hour arrives
Too quickly
Today,
A drive, required,
I need to see
You.
Same car,
Same old highway,
Same steady heartbeat
Purring, excitedly.
I’ve chosen the view,
A spot alongside
Road X,
Wishing to beat you there
My heal digs, as my toes
Push down, steadily,
A muscle in my thigh
Tightens
While pulling to the left,
I roll to a stop. I see you.
Longing for an embrace,
Wishing you did too,
I sit, upon this car hood,
And wait.
There’s never enough
Time
To watch you, my day,
Fall
Into twilight,
As if just for me.

Here

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All I keep thinking
is I took you home with me,
from here: my world.
Inside me,
there is a rhythm,
a melody and a presence
I recognize.
Weakening into a strength,
inside this cool air,
allowed me
to breathe, to feel
and be myself.
The quietness,
awakening my core
as I heard the sound of love;
pure devotion, nothing more.
I keep this spirit,
this lead, and confidence,
close.
You’re thriving,
more than simply alive
behind my breasts.
You’re beating continuously,
effortlessly wild,
yet, this isn’t enough.
I belong with you, here.

All Along

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I’ve felt you in my life
Whispered callings I ignored
My past has carried you in my heart
Pocket sized, along sandy shores

Present, and low voiced, there, too
Wooded wisps tending to folklore
Surround, comfort and continue
Our souls connecting without a clue

Continuation of plans, a need explored
Unforced, reveals a vibrant hue
Sighing, as I unfold tomorrow
How do I begin to explain you

Hidden Stardust

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Inside her, almost vibrating life
Was every sparkle, she had to hide
Bundle of expression, she’d closely kept
Hidden quietly, her undeniable breath

April came again, as it did last year
Every bit of her worry, is still her fear
What glows from within her suffocates
While she considers, what’s no longer at stake

As magenta opens and offers a view
It is he who still sees through
Understands her stardust, and always has
She found here, awaiting his hand