Not your fault, I often question
Not your fault, I’m broken
Not your fault, you couldn’t ever understand my uncertainty.
Not your fault, my trust is hard to gain.
Not your fault, when often I’m distant or confused,
Not your fault, my conversation skills.
Not your fault, I’m used to my own silence
Not your fault, I don’t know which way to turn
Not your fault, I can’t process receiving concern
Not your fault, I discipline myself
Not your fault, I stay in control
Not your fault, I’m a soft shouldered girl.
Not your fault, I can’t talk
Not your fault, I come from two parents who were lost
Not your fault, I need so much
Not your fault, I feel less than
Not your fault, I can’t make it easy,
Not your fault, you deserve a Queen
Oldest Daughter & Red Headed Sister 
Beautiful and honest, Audrey. We are so quick to point fingers at ourselves. But self compassion is so important, to treat ourselves just as we would treat others who we love dearly. You are truly deserving. Sending hugs, my friend…
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Thank you for the lovely comment, Lauren. xoxo
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Queens are imperfect beings, we all are.
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At some point I’m sure their imperfections come to light, as well. Thank you, C.
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They can be beloved for them you know.
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They are blessed then, I’d say.
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Yep
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Thank you for continuing to show me the good in life. ♡
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It takes two to tango, Poetess. Likewise, it takes two to argue. Don’t be too quick to heap ALL the blame on your shoulders, okay?!
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I’ve never been very good at arguing. That sort of fight just isn’t in me, Debbie. Poetry is how I express myself. Doing it vocally has always been a challenge due to fear of abandonment. Best to cover with humor, control and strength. Much love, my friend.
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We’re all different, my friend, and I keep forgetting that not everyone enjoys a good word-battle every now and then (must be the “fighting Irish” in me!) Stay true to yourself and know how special you are!!
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Eloquent and honest writing, Audrey. And I would echo what Ben said.
Be kind to yourself, my friend. ❤️
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Betty, you and Ben are such treasures. I am grateful for you. Thanks for reading. ♡
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well and excellent written…your lines amazing!!
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So nice of you. Thanks
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I really, really like this!!! I always feel like this when I am in arguments, because I always seemed to get accused of turning everything around, and it’s everyone else’s fault – but I don’t do that. It’s a weak strategy on the other person’s part for trying to take all blame off themselves. Maybe, it’s a redhead thing.
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Thank you. We share much, my friend. Why does this have to be one of them. ♡ Good to see you.
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It is good to see you too!!!
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Excellent, Audrey. I need to address the one you forgive. “But you should have stayed in spite of all that. That is your fault.”
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*Quivering chin and tears* So kind. Means a lot to have you sitting near, John. Thank you. Always.
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:-).
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You deserve, too…
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I’m doing my best to believe this, Dan. Thank you for being near.
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Forgiving others is a fine thing. But don’t let us forget to include ourselves in the armistice.
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Thank you, truly, from the depths of my soul, Ben. You are good for me. I will remember.
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Please do. 🙂
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