with a harvest so plentiful,
why is there no joy
with billows of copper creams within the sky,
why do I fear tomorrow
with air as crisp as heirloom apples,
why isn’t laughter around us
with Autumn expressing herself just so,
why am I alone
with a voice shaking towards the bluest of sky,
why, oh why, can’t I fly.
Needing to remember because every single person matters.
Wanting to forget because it hurts to acknowledge the fear this day created.
Knowing we are surrounded by bravery, men and women much braver than I, every day should humble us. Quiet the noise and ridiculous fighting our nation cannot get away from.
I am humbled.
Thank you.
9-11 changed us.
Lives were lost. Lives were transformed. Lives were offered hope. Lives stood in protection. Lives united.
We are a blessed nation every day moving forward. Never forget.
intuition gives
intellect’s vast questioning
truth we want denied
an internal fight
unprecedented debate
no one is surprised
sitting in the valley
of what might be
for the first time,
suffocating
Untied to what caused me
To go beyond what I believed,
Past what I stood for
Lost sight for the trees.
I hurt you, but you caused pain first.
You lead me towards evil opportunity,
In the end, I was who I wasn’t,
You knew better, yet allowed me.
Circle, little hands spin
Keeps close watch
Talks every now and then
Reminds me of effort
And where life remains
So little are we
Upon this earth
Words still cut, cause pain
Hurt
Our investment required
The outcome
After experience, noteworthy
Exhale shame
Inhale wisdom
Keep time as your guide
And be proud of your name
don’t apologize
misery leads excuses
reaction, enough
Where did you go
The deep hum, of your voice
Followed me in, but didn’t
Retreat along side of me
When I fled. My expectation
Wasn’t fair, I know.
The work is hard,
Battle even more so.
Are you still fighting,
Does the war continue,
Did strength
Defeat in there?
Soft hands still covering
Fragile heart. Fate leads
a Warrior. Love will win.
Strong.
Sacrafice
Creates tears,
Almost always.
The knowing
What’s best,
Hurts
When it isn’t
What’s been dreamt.
Adieu
Deserves a nod or
A chance at liberty.
Did the heart know?
Or do we now pray it did,
Because regret is so
Painful.
Hurts me, almost
Always. Remembering.
I knew, almost
Always. The lie.
Pain comes, almost
Always. At daylight.
I fail, almost
Always. Forgetting.
I need, almost
Always. The affirmation.
I am, almost
Always. Enough.
Thoughtful and creative words
Full of thankfulness,
Reflect me, as a woman
Appreciative of being heard.
These gifts
Are nothing in comparison
To my submission
As I offered myself to you.
I waited a long time to be seen
Through your poetic eyes
Read my poetry, and find clearly
I felt you long before you arrived.
***
Thank you for listening,
Aud
I watched her
the pain in her eyes
the grip she had on the handle
white knuckled
slowly departing
caving to her mind
yet, feeling her heart
fight right back
tears wiped
smudged across her cheek
watching through
a rainy mirrored day
as she slowly becomes me
incapable of allowing
what her soul needs
On reflective nights like tonight,
When my love senses yours,
I’m left bashful and afraid.
Ill equipped through distance,
To help heal any pain.
I realize, my words will never be enough,
And only my touch would do.
Composition in crystalline,
Respite for loneliness.
Comfort adrift with dawn,
Now amongst the sea’s sound.
Anxious waves bundle near,
Overtaking the shore,
Reaching to lap at my toes,
And wet my lost tears.
Submersion evident,
I’ll feel again there,
Hush my aching.
It wasn’t your inability to understand,
Would have never bothered me.
It wasn’t your lack of sincere interest,
I believe there’s a Ying to my Yang.
What I couldn’t take above the rest,
Was the complete lack of disrespect.
All I ever needed or wanted from you,
Was to feel like I was alive…
Each tear, feathered away,
asked not to stay.
Stained streaks of genuine pain,
across this confused face.
Knowing that I’ve cried over you,
another ugly mistake.
Missing you each and every day,
Not a lady does that make…
Oldest Daughter & Red Headed Sister 