When did my confidence go to battle with my insecurities?
Why are they winning?
I know better.
I am better.
I will continue to thrive.
Go. It’s been done before,
I survived.
I would again.
Throwing a temper tantrum would never work.
Waiting patiently gets me nowhere.
Being my quiet self is far too dull.
All that is left is to use my voice, yet, the quiver I hear isn’t very convincing as I try.
Fearing judgment may keep me from the happiness I know I deserve.
Wanting to be a playground, but instead I’ve become too common.
Take what is yours, these words I hear constantly in my head, I used to believe they were meant for me to say to the one who truly wanted me.
Maybe it’s what I’m supposed to do.
Huh, it goes against who I believe I am, but being left alone is too.
Oldest Daughter & Red Headed Sister 
Figuring out who you are is difficult because it’s always a situation in flux. You’re a warrior one day or maybe only one hour, defending your children or your rights. You’re a chef another day, stirring up a pot of stew for the chilled hungry masses who come to eat at your table. You’re a swimmer, moving upstream against the tide of indifference or intolerance or selfishness, or whatever greedy mass movement offends you.
Always you are a poet, Audrey, and I suspect that your poetry, at least the poetry always in your soul, will one day reach the heart of a person who deserves to sit by your side and be your companion in all things.
As for common? The thought doesn’t belong here.
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Single parenting my two nearly grown ones has offered them moments to show me I’m not alone. They are fantastic and have done their best to walk along side me at the ready to make me a prouder mom than the day before.
Shari, I’m a difficult one to love. My inability to show weakness keeps many away. I’ve always had to be tough. Some days I just want to fall and yes, I’d be thrilled to have a partner. Praying the fates have me earning that right one day soon.
Thank you for lifting me up. I appreciate you. ♡
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smiling to your
believing
in yourself
dear sister 🙂
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Belief
Keeps one
Going 🙂
Thank you, David.
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You are better, You are worthy, and You are a survivor. Powerful words, Audrey 💕
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Thank you, Lauren. Very kind of you. ♡
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Hey Audrey. I decided to come back.
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…to say that you’re not common in any way. 😊
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You’re the best. I’m grateful for your visit. I hope you are well.
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*looks for an email* Johnny!!!!!!!!
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I might actually do that so I can drop my new link and maybe extend a formal invitation to my bal
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…blog and try to sell you on it. 😜
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Aw, I’ve never needed selling. You’re one of those true talents. 🙂
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Always use your voice.
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Your reminder helps. I shall, Sir.
Seems I shouldn’t need a review, as I’ve been shown what is possible when I do, but here we are revisiting my inability to communicate my thoughts well. Old habits die hard so they say. ♡
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Maybe a few folks reminding you may help with it.
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I really just need/want one, you know.
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Insecurities never fight fair. It’s best to simply move beyond them. “I know better. I am better.” You do, and you are!
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I know better, I am better…I know I will settle into me. Thank you for believing so, Dan.
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I love this line. “Take what is yours, these words I hear constantly in my head, I used to believe they were meant for me to say to the one who truly wanted me.” I hope you have changed your mind.
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Smiles. I do love knowing you like the fierceness I have within. Thank you, Butch. ♡
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🙂
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I think this might be a “This too shall pass” moment, Miss A. Hang in there. Winter can be hard, with its gray days and cold, but eventually the sun will shine again!
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This too shall pass, is correct. I must do my part to believe in my future. Winter is a beautiful time of year. I’m doing well, Ma’am. ♡
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So glad to hear that, Poetess!!
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♡
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Never common! Lovely poem Ginger!
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Thank you for believing so, Sister Heart. ♡
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Definitely, your poetry is always moving and lovely.
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I appreciate that, Holly. Thank you ♡
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You’re more than welcome, ❤
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