Devotee

In vivid dreams
I run to you
You run to me
Last night
There was no talking
At first I was sad
Heartbroken
Our time
Is it over
Tears began to flow
You held me
Reminded me
Devotedly
Sweet Darling
We love our silence
Communication
Between hearts
Share a common beat
Believe
I woke up relieved
I love you
You love me
What we have
Will always be
Bright colors
I see them
Accross a wide sky
At dawn
In fields
Flowers bloom
Like you, beautiful
Laughter alive
Shared between friends
Stop worrying
Start Creating
Begin living
Make a path
A voice inside
Screaming
Don’t give up
I think it may be you
You’re all around me
Devotee

Just Don’t Ask Me How I Am

Can I offer the holding of my hand?
Just don’t ask me how I am
I’ll let you kiss my lips.
Just don’t ask me how I am
You can touch me from here to there.
Just don’t ask me how I am
Is it sex you want?
Just don’t ask me how I am
I’ll scream your name during our love-making.
Just don’t ask me how I am
Call me when you’re lonely, I’m okay with that, too.
Just don’t ask me how I am

(See, I told you. 😀 ) Less talk. More action. That’s who this woman is in all walks of life. A woman who isn’t great at communicating. ..an enigma, of sorts, I guess you could say.

Lost Without You

Spirit flying near me
My muse
What are you asking of me
Courage
Believability
Authenticity
A face I cannot see
Has created
Stunning poetry
Spirit
I sense you
Pushing to leave
Even flee
Tell me
Give me
The words
I need
To make you
Stay
I can beg
Don’t leave me
Effortlessly
Promising
I’ll be good
My need
Nothing
Pitiful
Really
Craving to be near

Heart’s Anticipation

Hearts break
Created for more
Than keeping us alive
The powerful organ
Innocently sitting
Beating
Yet, actually
Guarding
Anticipating
Each arrival
Life’s disappointments

Possible dream shattering
Inevitable realizations
Of real human behavior
Infidelity
Dishonesty
Silence
Alive
Breathing
Sending the final punch

Had the heart been waiting
Sensing struggles all along
Disaster coming
Forcing
Protection
Sending out low voices
Always
A mind choosing to ignore

Does the heart forsee
The size of the breaking
Afterwards
Is it even a possibility
It will heal
Provide the ultimate
Forgiveness
Questioning
Why it should
Stay a prisoner
For good

Only You To Say

I haven’t the words
I’ve beg them to come
Rush over me
With true abandon
Nights full of craving
Days full of behaving
I plea
There is no describing
What your kiss does to me
Body alive
I come to you complete
Take me
Somewhere far away
Life less confusing
My heartbeat needs to flee
I can taste your need
It fulfills this queen
I can’t take much more
The decision making all yours
Will I survive the day
My love
Tis only you to say
Preparing already
Digging my own grave

Crimson Queen

Dark footsteps sounding
A calmness overtakes
You’re coming
Release me
I’m begging
Allow her to breathe
Your power
Devours
I’m ready
Take all of me
Instantly
Invite her senses
Welcome her inside
I’m ready
By agreeing
Your world will change
Stay impressionable
It would behoove you
Yet, I’m ready
My name on your lips
Princess of Darkness
How little you truly know
My dear, my love
I see my throne
Make room
I’m ready
I will
Command your lips
You will
Identify my new name
The Crimson Queen
In all her beauty
Alive
Living
Ready

A World With You

Robin Red Breast tweets
Do you remember
Our melody
Water, crystal blue
Consuming
Allows me to dream of you
Children’s laughter
Creates my giggling
Yes, the way you prefer me
I find myself singing
Music accompanying
A stunning beat
When you’re around me
I crave sharing
Food’s most tempting flavors
Nights full of wishes
Desires
Your arms owning
Providing, peaceful sleeps

Darkside

As soon as I’d written my angel’s conversation with God. My hand wrote this:

Don’t let go
Hold on
Stuff it
All inside

You look crazy
Dumb one
Yes, you, woman

Audrey, listen
You are alone
Still

Stay where it feels safe
Minding your own
Feel my control?

Just so we’re clear I don’t believe this to be true. Allowing myself to post this has given me the upper hand with darkness.

Yesterday’s Today

Yesterday
I saw you
Walking
You, beautiful
Handsome, really
Shoulders out
Eyes sparkling
Responding
To God’s green
Everything beautiful
Yet, not me

Your abilities
Creative
Endless
Capturing life’s impossibilities
Proving their existence
A beautiful world
Never faltering

Yet, inside today
You scream
Towards me
Forcing me to believe
Darkness lives
Cruelty
Exsists
Accusing me unworthy
Of your eye’s view
I could have saved you
Yesterday’s Today, denying

Sunrise

Sunlight pushing
Through my window
Oh how I’ve missed you
You beg me outside
Come play for awhile
Me always submitting
The warmth you provide
When I step into you
Welcomed
The light you create
Reaches far and wide
Brightness over takes
This woman’s mind
Your soothing rays
Meant to wash over my day
Reminding me
I’m alive
Always
Your rainbow of color
Feels like a smile
Strong and inviting
Helps me run towards you
Maybe one more mile
A sunrise you’ve perfected
Your job done
Rise up and come to me
Finding your place
Amongst the sky
Steady your pace
Join me today
Walking slowly
Enjoying our journey

On Sad Days

The tears I cry
Contain your name
I miss you
No denying
In an effort to feel
I wipe my tears
You ignite me
Proving sickness
Lurking
Questioning
Why we’re alone
Magnifying
Worlds apart
Universe
You sicken me
You sense
My need
I witness
Creativity
All around
Yet offering
No, allowing
Darkness
Denying me
His smile
His mind
Alone
Searching comfort
In sweet bottled
Bottomless
Consequence
Understanding
Provides
An awakening
Creating hope
One day
Our beginning

Destiny

Walking beaches
Focusing
Holding on
Where water
Meets sky
Horizon
Do you see me
Becoming one
Love’s Geminis
Witnessing beauty
Humbly
Chance meeting
A conclusion
For all my searching
Strength
Courage
Clarity
Have you
Love
Emotion
Desires
Have I
Somewhere
Over a rainbow
Shakespeare’s Viola
A Bonnie for his Clyde
Wishing on stars
Walking through waters
Skipping rocks
Looking for his face
Reoccurring waves

Written 2-1-14

Him

Raindrops on roses
A sight I seek
Your teardrops
To drink
I’ve loved you forever
My heart has always known
A constant search
From left to right
Feeling foolish
Scared of the unknown
Not prepared
For shiny lights
Predestined
It seems
From the beginning
Is what I mean
Neither knowing
Until recently
Strength
Power
Overtaking
When love rules
I’m left
Succumbing
Show me love
Faithfulness true
Possessing powerful
Thoughts of you
Do you question
My feelings
Yes, of course
I love you

Rain

Today
Rain
Beating
Warm window panes
Thank you
For washing away
Yesterdays misery
Cleaning up life’s mess
The power you possess
Quenching
All that is green
Life’s beauty
Creating pastels
Finding a way
Allowing
Crimson colors
To spread
Oh what you do
For the living
What it means
To me