Wholeheartedly

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Visiting unsafe places
At dawn
Creatures lurking
Yes, just right there
I’ve found a bridge
It’s been put there as a sign
I should walk across it
Leave the rest behind
Nervous
Today, I won’t allow fate’s misdirection
I see green, it surrounds
Proof you’re here somewhere
Hoping you’ll find me
You saved me once before
With your words so loud and with flare.
When you write of love and devotion,
This lady understands wholeheartedly.
I love you
I used to believe it was my mind,
doing amazing deeds for you.
This morning clarity allows me,
Quietly,
to agree it is your words,
which have changed me.

Devotion

 

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Longing for my heart’s home
Keeps me peaceful
Centered
A calm destination
My weakened mind’s petition
Striving place for final clarity
A soft place to fall into actualities
Rocky Mountains of supreme force,
Continue to remind.

They never grow taller sadly,
Forever crumble slow.

This I know
Pushing to defy reality;
Show me taller and stronger,
With more reserve.

Rivers flow, a one way road;
Beautiful rivers babble,
Find peace in those.
My river rages far into forever,
Defines devotion

March

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Spring flowers
Growing wild outside,
And in my mind
Remind me why,
I chose today to fly
Should I trust
I’m a small bird
In a big world,
An overwhelming view
The rain was massive
A tsunami,  of sorts
The wind blew,
Yet allowed me to stand
Then made me climb mountains,
Scream towards this vast land
View ocean’s waves,
Pondering thoughts in my brain
But it was the train, train, train
What I would give for one more ride
One more try
I blame Spring Break
That nasty troll
The best was the robin red breast
I loved his sweet tune
All of these reminded me of you
March came in like a lion
Been sitting like a lamb
Bring the lion back
Is all I ask

Ignite

I know a simple place
It draws me in
Like your heartbeat, my friend
A perfect spot for just you and me
Can we watch the sunset
Hold each other closely
Remind me
What I’ve missed
Yea, there’s a few trees
You know I like green
See the rain drops still glistening
On each and every leaf
The sun’s rays brighten your beautiful face
Paint me a picture of happy
Hold me
We’ll watch each raindrop fall,
as well as our sun
Slowly
Landing upon your chest
My breast
Sun so hot
Yet, the feel of your fingers ignite

Force Me: My Marks Are Fading (Dark Poetry)

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Keeping track of every moment
My body reacts,
To your emotions
Tonight I’m asking for darkness
Intrigue me
Honor my request
Lesser men haven’t
They’ve kept me in a tangled mess
I’m demanding you challenge
Don’t think me afraid
Do you see how my marks fade
I have an urgency to feel
No, I won’t hold your hand
Once and a while a lady will command
I assume this will make you mad
I’m counting on that
I know what you’re thinking
She has no idea what she’s requesting
I’ve learned a few rules
This personality,
Since I was fifteen
Tonight, a monster I’m craving
In the end, do it sweetly
I want you to push back
Crush me
Control me
Center me
Take me
Force my feelings out

Problematic

Spent time meditating
I vision you gravitating
Wandering near by
Creating a happy lady
Can you see my smile
Reminiscing
Lips curled up in a purse
Eyes heavy and lazy
Drifting and remembering
Nothing better in this world
Than you responding
The reaction it gives me
You’d deem problematic
I find that awesome-fantastic
Do you feel me

My View

Sending me pictures
The three of you together
A vigil you’ve created
May God bless you
Should be four of us in that room
Three sisters and a brother
Watching over our mother
Instead I watch with only a small view
Your faces should ease my worry
Instead I close my phone crying
My weakness is eating me alive

Failing You

I’m not there for you today
The fact still escapes me
Never in all my dreams could I see
Not getting to you when you’re in need
I always said I’d lead
Be there for each one of you
Siblings
Parents, too
I’m the Sister
I’m the Daughter
No matter the distance
Today marks another weakness
I’ve allowed distance to limit
All my most inherited instincts
I’m so sorry
I’m here going on about my day
The rest of you, in a waiting room
Keep me posted
I’m failing all of you
Damn, Texas and all the distance
Mom,  today, you’re on my mind

Your Lady

She chooses who she’ll be
Powerful
Meek
A conformer
Unique
A woman is born to dream
A soft skinned girl on her terms
Rough and edgy when she’s protecting
She’ll make you laugh
You’re on top of the world
When she brings you to your knees
Reflections are seen
Her power lives, there’s no denying
She loves you hard
She feels safe
On top of the world
A life you’ll create
Stand beside you, fists drawn
Planted in front, protecting your cause
Even behind you, for her faith
One she believes twas God to create
Behind doors she’s all yours
Treat her like royalty
You’ll forever be her King
Shoot her your infectious smile
She’ll give you anything, heart’s desire
Shy eyes sparkling
Or run to you craving
Agreeing to fulfill your need
Consuming

I Choose To Believe

Searching for new words
To describe you
I dream about how they look
Tis like trying them on your body
Yes, sometimes I go there
Hesitant
They’ll need to feel like you
Yes, I go there, too
I choose to believe
My words find my muse
Time and time again
Yet this moment
Zero conformity
None of them suit
Your ability
Your wisdom unending
Contagious thoughts
A Charmer of bees
Holding my attention
Well, it isn’t easy
I drift
I dream
I see
My mind and words
forever spinning
You calm me
Bring me peace
What will I do if you ever leave
Never breathe
Visions of your back to me
I can’t handle
I choose to believe
Your need
Similar to mine
Maybe
Probably never
Bravery can handle life
If you must go
I’ve held my breath longer
I’m the Oldest Daughter
The Red Headed Sister
My names weren’t easily obtained
To the bottom of my heart is deep
Wide open
Still recieving
I choose to believe

A Piece Of You

Today
Spent physically busy
My title, Redheaded Chaperone
My mind left to ponder
What is blooming
Spring
Flowers
Love
Poetic pictures
I love you like this
I could love you like that
I would love you
To the moon and back
Images
Created by me
Providing comfort
What I’ve realized
Quite easily
Everyone wants a piece
Yet, I desire
All of you
Can you sense the difference
I need to know
What makes you tick
How do you dream
Are you busy
Do you sense where we’re going
Friendships are important
Shock comes from twin feelings
Bonds form
Your smile today
Left to my soul’s preference
One day
I promise
I will trace that smile
Using my fingertips

Good News

My news for you
On this morning’s dew
Reality is, I understand
They didn’t offer you love
Did they?
You weren’t given the chance
Were you?
Did they leave
Work too much
Forget you existed
Left you on the side of the street
Those are all possibilities
I’m here
I’ve been there
Not to each place
Probably not yours
Yet, I understand
Feelings of abandonment
Each one of ours different
Can you allow me to remind
They may have never offered
But somewhere inside
They love you
Somehow they do
You felt it inside
Or you wouldn’t be here
You’re not dead
You’re alive
Don’t discount them
Over three words
Although not uttered
Maybe felt instead
By the most primal of sorts
If your pain is found in a deeper well
I’ll simply hold you
If you’d like just sit near
Please listen
Bring all of you
Come closer
I love you to pieces
I adore your soul
You are beautiful
You may not know what to do
Or where to go
Rest assured
He loves us
I’m here
I choose to care
Believe
I love you

 

Shades Of You

Like a soft breeze
Tonight you arrived
Willingly
Feeling you
All majestic
Exhaling with relief
Agreed
You have the ability
Yes, to surprise
Violence to such a degree
Shades of you
Not a picture of love
Most importantly
It scared me
Point proven
Shaken
Yet, not moving away
Onward movement
Like a dream
You opened your soul
A beautiful piece
It was a pleasure to see
Thank you
A better understanding

Oh, Yeah!

I saw you first
Yeah, you were there
All powerful
Demanding
Amongst the rest of your crew
Looking all cool and fascinating
Yes, you!
I felt nothing but intrigue
You were all my eyes could see

I approached you hesitantly
You would be a lot for me
Just look at your surroundings
Yet, our eyes locked
Yours shining
Mine craving
Suddenly I felt free
Heart quickening
Soul waking up
Life as we knew it – over
The submitting would take two

I asked for a moment from you
An agreement was made
We’d go for a quick ride outside
Sliding in took little effort
I’d waited a long time
Wondering how fast you’d take me
A shy girl with a thrill for a fast ride
One push from me
Fire created suddenly

With permission granted
You carefully took me
All those places I’d been craving
I’m not surprised
You knew what you were doing
Owning me by the first curve
My release finally coming
After admitting
I could easily dominate you

I sit here now satisfied
You with that stupid grin
I can’t wait to show you off
Dodge Charger
You couldn’t be hotter
You and your new car smell
My tomorrow’s Show And Tell

I love my new car!!

Thank You

I imagine
A tree
Strong
Growing
Nurished
Inside out
Green
Blossoming
Yet, bark, like skin
Scarred and rough
This tree
Just like you and me
Fed by the Father
Son
Holy Spirit
All uniquely
United to form One
Thank you, God
For bringing me
Courage
To be all I dreamed
Honesty
To allow sleep
Determination
To grow hearts
I Thank You
For all the transgressions
You forgave
Renewing the flesh
Which causes such pain
So one day
We’ll all live with You again