Yesterday’s Today

Yesterday
I saw you
Walking
You, beautiful
Handsome, really
Shoulders out
Eyes sparkling
Responding
To God’s green
Everything beautiful
Yet, not me

Your abilities
Creative
Endless
Capturing life’s impossibilities
Proving their existence
A beautiful world
Never faltering

Yet, inside today
You scream
Towards me
Forcing me to believe
Darkness lives
Cruelty
Exsists
Accusing me unworthy
Of your eye’s view
I could have saved you
Yesterday’s Today, denying

Gone

Thoughts of you return
There isn’t much I can do
Learning to write without you
Praying it isn’t true

Like a feather
My fingers touch
Words have meaning
Lost and grieving

Producing creativity together
Light as a feather
Fragile, too
Say it isn’t true

Does it bother thee
When I think of you
It must
My kiss, it went refused

Sunrise

Sunlight pushing
Through my window
Oh how I’ve missed you
You beg me outside
Come play for awhile
Me always submitting
The warmth you provide
When I step into you
Welcomed
The light you create
Reaches far and wide
Brightness over takes
This woman’s mind
Your soothing rays
Meant to wash over my day
Reminding me
I’m alive
Always
Your rainbow of color
Feels like a smile
Strong and inviting
Helps me run towards you
Maybe one more mile
A sunrise you’ve perfected
Your job done
Rise up and come to me
Finding your place
Amongst the sky
Steady your pace
Join me today
Walking slowly
Enjoying our journey

On Sad Days

The tears I cry
Contain your name
I miss you
No denying
In an effort to feel
I wipe my tears
You ignite me
Proving sickness
Lurking
Questioning
Why we’re alone
Magnifying
Worlds apart
Universe
You sicken me
You sense
My need
I witness
Creativity
All around
Yet offering
No, allowing
Darkness
Denying me
His smile
His mind
Alone
Searching comfort
In sweet bottled
Bottomless
Consequence
Understanding
Provides
An awakening
Creating hope
One day
Our beginning

Destiny

Walking beaches
Focusing
Holding on
Where water
Meets sky
Horizon
Do you see me
Becoming one
Love’s Geminis
Witnessing beauty
Humbly
Chance meeting
A conclusion
For all my searching
Strength
Courage
Clarity
Have you
Love
Emotion
Desires
Have I
Somewhere
Over a rainbow
Shakespeare’s Viola
A Bonnie for his Clyde
Wishing on stars
Walking through waters
Skipping rocks
Looking for his face
Reoccurring waves

Written 2-1-14

Scared

Three pushing inside of me:
What I want to do – I cannot do
What I want to write – I cannot write
What I want to say – I cannot say

What I want to believe – I fight to believe

Three comfortable inside of me:
What I can do is dream – I shall dream
What I can do is think – I shall think
What I can do is feel – I shall feel

Him

Raindrops on roses
A sight I seek
Your teardrops
To drink
I’ve loved you forever
My heart has always known
A constant search
From left to right
Feeling foolish
Scared of the unknown
Not prepared
For shiny lights
Predestined
It seems
From the beginning
Is what I mean
Neither knowing
Until recently
Strength
Power
Overtaking
When love rules
I’m left
Succumbing
Show me love
Faithfulness true
Possessing powerful
Thoughts of you
Do you question
My feelings
Yes, of course
I love you

A Sparkly Joke

“Do you want to hear a joke?”
“No, not really.”
“Come on, you like my humor. This is a great joke, Audrey.”
“I’m afraid I won’t know when to laugh.”
“Yes, you will! Your timing is perfect.”
“But, life’s been so serious lately.”
“Woman, let me tell you my joke! You’ll give me that boisterous laugh I crave.”
“I’m not sure I would…how do you know?”
“You tend to make most speaks a joke. That’s how I’ll know.”
“Well not anymore I won’t! ”
“Of course you will, because it’s part of who you are, my dear. The bonus being that you’ll see past it now, as well.”
“Do you really think so, babe?”
“I do!”
“Okay, well press forward then would you.”
“You want me to tell my joke now? Giving me permission?  How quickly you become her…”
“*smirk* Yes, of course, my love.”
“I’m going to ignore that…Why did the chicken cross the road, Audrey?”
“Hmmm, because he saw something sparkly. DUH!”
“NO! Sparkly?! What kind of reason is that to cross a road?”
“Well, isn’t it normal to be attracted to something sparkly?”
“Maybe, but are chickens drawn there?”
“I think they must be…”
“You’ve ruined my joke!”
“I’m sorry. I think you think I’m a chicken…tell me. Why did the chicken cross the road?”
“I’m not sure I want to tell you now…”
“Please, my love, just tell me.”
“Okay, but nothing I tell you will seem funny after all of that ridiculousness! He crossed the road, well, to get to the other side.”
*giggles*
“You laughed?!”
“Haha. Yes!”
“How? Why?”
“It is just as I said. The chicken did see something sparkly, which helped him to the other side.”
“Okay, what could that have possibly been?”
“Come over here and let me thank you for making me laugh.”
“I’m not sure I want to…I’m still sorting out why a chicken is drawn to sparkly objects and what it could have been.”
“Now you’re sparkly! Kiss me.”

Fate

Within the night she runs far away
Upon the mountain top she climbs
She cries
You must tell me why
Shouting at the stars
Wishing upon a different fate
Mistakes made
Broken no longer clean
Endure
Falling down in the rocky ground
She welcomes even more pain
To take it for you, you and you
Mistakes
Never offer understanding
Instantly
Misery enjoys company
Leave quickly
She’s coming

She’s Tight

My past
Taught me how to feel
Dependence
Wiped me clean
Trust nobody
Speak of only pleasantries
Happiness always favored
Darkness nonexistent
Always available
Soft shouldered girl
A quiet ear bending
My dear,
Let them tell you anything
Don’t fight
Never a cross word
Truth thought absurd
Look beautiful
Shan’t let them see me cry
Oh the lies, lies, lies
My feelings meant for nobody
Stay controlled
Find my fate
Alone

Yuck

Frustration
Infuses
These feisty veins
You
Whatever
Your identity
Prowling
Lurking
Trying to scare
You don’t know
I’ve conquered
More
Even less
Nasty
Unknown
Faceless
Darkness
Has no place
On this blog
Determination
Resides
Gaurding
My soul
My writing
My world
Don’t think
You can attack
I fight back
Enjoy
Feel
Create
Through me
However
Absolutely
Respect me

A Conversation

Hey
Hey
***
How are you?
Great. How are you?
Great.
Okay
***
You there?
Yeah, I’m here.
Okay
***
How was your day?
Good. Yours?
Good
***
You there?
Yeah, I’m here.
Okay
***
Wanna talk?
Yeah.
Good
***
You there?
Yeah, I’m here.
Okay
***
Anything special you want to talk about?
No, you choose.
Okay
***
You still there?
Yeah, I’m here.
Okay
***
It’s so quiet.
Yeah, it’s nice being here with you.
Okay
***
You still there?
Yeah, I’m here.
Okay
***
I hate your phone.
Why?
You’re holding it.
You make me laugh.
***
You still there?
Yeah, I’m here.
Okay