sat outside for a bit,
the evening
said good-bye,
a trying week
left behind.
I wasn’t alone
as the rain spat
gaining strength,
I met it
covering my face
go ahead – yours.
I succumbed
released my control again
my breath slowing, and
found I wasn’t alone.
She was with me,
taunting me with her ability
to pose, for him.
Conquering wasn’t the plan.
as plain as it sounds,
I wanted to belong
be along side,
your missing link
searched for
found
and shown
where I was needed.
Sustainable, desired
an intricate detail,
in view
precious,
in the forever story.
One shouldn’t go
where one isn’t
planned for,
intended
or thought of
***
What I Would Have Shown You
inspiration doesn’t require
explaination,
when sat upon our souls
we transform. Recognized.
guidance welcome
acceptance voluntary
but, we strive to belong
somewhere or to someone
and in wanting we lose foundation. Consumed.
inspiration lost
desperation born
recognizing ourselves
and our vision
becomes impossible,
leaving the impetus expired.
***
An update and explaination for my words in this What I Would Have Shown You series can be found here: https://oldestdaughterredheadedsister.com/2019/08/10/an-update-new-series/
I hope you enjoy my journey. Your grace and patience while I sat growing has overwhelmed me.
Thank you for reading.
summer view for sale
passing through nowadays
golden hues melting
You reside on protective winds,
Waves she won’t honestly understand; and been denied.
Bringing peace to bruised souls deemed worth saving.
Left early to her own devices,
She questions helpful hands
Prefers avoiding disappointment, yet failed.
Forced to believe she’s meant to be alone,
Soul searching required, and left to wonder
Why life is the way it is.
too average
too independent
too quiet
too far away
too serious
too cliche
too normal
too she’ll be okay
Thankfulness
Waking renewed
Gift of calm
Hush comforts
What is trusted must sustain
Irreplaceable
I accept what I cannot change
like freckles, age and height,
Find what brings a smile to my face
family, nature and creative types,
Invite myself to love who I am
sensitive, obedient & ornery alike,
and forget what he said,
seems I already did.
He said, Dare yourself
to see yourself
as I see you.
View you, as I do,
Radiant.
Haven’t checked in with you for awhile, you’ve been busy. It’s time to see how you are, dear one. With you, even a thorough inquiry will leave a lot left untouched, but we’ll do what we can.
Be honest with yourself.
numb, these days
a place shadows play
in, around, atop me
quiet in many avenues
normal, they venture –
but her smile is missing
nothing out of place,
music sounds the same
yet, heart ceased
wind tastes different,
I wander,
never truly breathe
illumination
surrounded by eclipse hush
bounty is within
the curl of her slinder fingers
as they wrap around
and back behind.
growing,
in the warmth you vastly provide.
straining lavender and honeyed,
fluent flora’s pedigree,
subtle urges for her not to hide,
bestowed.
yet, wearing forlorn, it would seem
midsummer maiden
slipping into apricot
chest out, confident
Sometimes
When I’m outside,
Away
From who sleeps
Inside,
Night air, comforting,
I escape myself
Duties, responsibilities,
What keeps me
Level. Grounded.
As pristine
Falls from above
Cold wraps across
Her laden chest,
Pulls her against
Frozen.
Nature sublime
Incorrigible desire
His spirit, like
A blanket of
Snow,
Laid upon fair skin.
Snowflakes replace
Flawed freckles, and
For a moment,
She, luminous, her
Soul, complete.
A body in
Crystallized radiance
She’ll wonder how
Many hairs are grey
If your heartbeat
Feels the same.
Consider the new
Wrinkle by her eye,
And which stress
It was cause by.
Crisp morning air
Will cause her
Red curls to dance,
Would it affect
You, by chance?
First blush will arise
Around her,
Comforts of home:
Ground, she clings to.
Simple house shoes, worn
Her toes content
Ankles exposed.
Behind fawn wool,
A woman’s desire shown.
Frozen concrete steps
She sits upon gracefully
Allows for silence,
Awakening a quiet
Reflective dawn;
Her serenity.
Each timed breath,
Causes movement
Beneath her
Heaving breasts,
Proving control:
A lady’s weakness.
Yet you’re aware,
Her day has begun
And still,
She’ll want, require
The comfort
Of you,
Her Eastern Sun.
fighting words
words inside my mind
mindful of my beliefs
beliefs which carry
carry me into the light
light where you exist
exist in my every day
day: when I search
search for you the most.
Abundant living
Choices everywhere
There’s only one me; one human being: you, singular
And its unrealized, we’re all dazed.
Take care of you, I’ll protect me. Life unpredictable. Created perfectly. Alone, but with need and love to give.
Oldest Daughter & Red Headed Sister 