Positively Gray

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Sun behind the clouds again
Pay no mind today
Stay thankful
Positively gray
Be surprising
Continue your heartbeat
Allow love’s residing omnipresence to complete
Walk among the rocks this morning
Feel the heat
Hardness of existence
Thriving
A warm day is upon us,
With or without the sun’s wink
Water crashes
Although dreary
The spray divine
Cleans my thoughts, my heart, my mind
I’ve loved you for a million years,
If even for a day
I see you even after you’ve walked away
My thoughts and prayers always with you
My mind continues to write
Our love affair lasts forever
Even when its grey outside
The sun I shall seek today
I feel the rays
Incandescent
Exploratory
Tenacious
I am me
Finally breathing
Worthy

Anger

I grew up taking care
soothing pains
of those who suffered.
Who taught me?
Two sisters, brother,
mother and a father.
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Oldest Daughter
fights for all.
Redheaded sister
hugs when they fall.
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Don’t tell me
I’m vain,
Superficial;
or bloody insane.
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The poetry
I write
is of happiness,
often healing me
at the end
of my day.
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I tend to
women’s tears,
when there’s no
money for simplicities.
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I feed children
with no lunches,
after mothers
have forgotten.
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I fix worn out clothes,
even when I don’t know how.
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Trust me, these people
I know;
live in my heart.
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I’m not
what your
eyes see,
my poetry,
an escape for me.
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I write of love
hoping to create it
for all those who
are denied.
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Yes, I admit, it helps me too.
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Am I confident?
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Yes, I cannot help
this part of me.
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Take it or leave it.
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Maybe, just let me be me.
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I know suffering
I feel it everyday
humanity is
my sibling,
my child,
my sister,
my friend,
my brother,
and my end.
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I will go to my grave
trying to save them all.
I’m allowing you
to catch me when I fall.
Look me in the eye
when you’re looking
for a fight.
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This girl will react.
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I just might…

Wholeheartedly

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Visiting unsafe places
At dawn
Creatures lurking
Yes, just right there
I’ve found a bridge
It’s been put there as a sign
I should walk across it
Leave the rest behind
Nervous
Today, I won’t allow fate’s misdirection
I see green, it surrounds
Proof you’re here somewhere
Hoping you’ll find me
You saved me once before
With your words so loud and with flare.
When you write of love and devotion,
This lady understands wholeheartedly.
I love you
I used to believe it was my mind,
doing amazing deeds for you.
This morning clarity allows me,
Quietly,
to agree it is your words,
which have changed me.

Devotion

 

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Longing for my heart’s home
Keeps me peaceful
Centered
A calm destination
My weakened mind’s petition
Striving place for final clarity
A soft place to fall into actualities
Rocky Mountains of supreme force,
Continue to remind.

They never grow taller sadly,
Forever crumble slow.

This I know
Pushing to defy reality;
Show me taller and stronger,
With more reserve.

Rivers flow, a one way road;
Beautiful rivers babble,
Find peace in those.
My river rages far into forever,
Defines devotion

March

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Spring flowers
Growing wild outside,
And in my mind
Remind me why,
I chose today to fly
Should I trust
I’m a small bird
In a big world,
An overwhelming view
The rain was massive
A tsunami,  of sorts
The wind blew,
Yet allowed me to stand
Then made me climb mountains,
Scream towards this vast land
View ocean’s waves,
Pondering thoughts in my brain
But it was the train, train, train
What I would give for one more ride
One more try
I blame Spring Break
That nasty troll
The best was the robin red breast
I loved his sweet tune
All of these reminded me of you
March came in like a lion
Been sitting like a lamb
Bring the lion back
Is all I ask

Ignite

I know a simple place
It draws me in
Like your heartbeat, my friend
A perfect spot for just you and me
Can we watch the sunset
Hold each other closely
Remind me
What I’ve missed
Yea, there’s a few trees
You know I like green
See the rain drops still glistening
On each and every leaf
The sun’s rays brighten your beautiful face
Paint me a picture of happy
Hold me
We’ll watch each raindrop fall,
as well as our sun
Slowly
Landing upon your chest
My breast
Sun so hot
Yet, the feel of your fingers ignite

Force Me: My Marks Are Fading (Dark Poetry)

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Keeping track of every moment
My body reacts,
To your emotions
Tonight I’m asking for darkness
Intrigue me
Honor my request
Lesser men haven’t
They’ve kept me in a tangled mess
I’m demanding you challenge
Don’t think me afraid
Do you see how my marks fade
I have an urgency to feel
No, I won’t hold your hand
Once and a while a lady will command
I assume this will make you mad
I’m counting on that
I know what you’re thinking
She has no idea what she’s requesting
I’ve learned a few rules
This personality,
Since I was fifteen
Tonight, a monster I’m craving
In the end, do it sweetly
I want you to push back
Crush me
Control me
Center me
Take me
Force my feelings out

Problematic

Spent time meditating
I vision you gravitating
Wandering near by
Creating a happy lady
Can you see my smile
Reminiscing
Lips curled up in a purse
Eyes heavy and lazy
Drifting and remembering
Nothing better in this world
Than you responding
The reaction it gives me
You’d deem problematic
I find that awesome-fantastic
Do you feel me

My View

Sending me pictures
The three of you together
A vigil you’ve created
May God bless you
Should be four of us in that room
Three sisters and a brother
Watching over our mother
Instead I watch with only a small view
Your faces should ease my worry
Instead I close my phone crying
My weakness is eating me alive

Failing You

I’m not there for you today
The fact still escapes me
Never in all my dreams could I see
Not getting to you when you’re in need
I always said I’d lead
Be there for each one of you
Siblings
Parents, too
I’m the Sister
I’m the Daughter
No matter the distance
Today marks another weakness
I’ve allowed distance to limit
All my most inherited instincts
I’m so sorry
I’m here going on about my day
The rest of you, in a waiting room
Keep me posted
I’m failing all of you
Damn, Texas and all the distance
Mom,  today, you’re on my mind

Your Lady

She chooses who she’ll be
Powerful
Meek
A conformer
Unique
A woman is born to dream
A soft skinned girl on her terms
Rough and edgy when she’s protecting
She’ll make you laugh
You’re on top of the world
When she brings you to your knees
Reflections are seen
Her power lives, there’s no denying
She loves you hard
She feels safe
On top of the world
A life you’ll create
Stand beside you, fists drawn
Planted in front, protecting your cause
Even behind you, for her faith
One she believes twas God to create
Behind doors she’s all yours
Treat her like royalty
You’ll forever be her King
Shoot her your infectious smile
She’ll give you anything, heart’s desire
Shy eyes sparkling
Or run to you craving
Agreeing to fulfill your need
Consuming

I Choose To Believe

Searching for new words
To describe you
I dream about how they look
Tis like trying them on your body
Yes, sometimes I go there
Hesitant
They’ll need to feel like you
Yes, I go there, too
I choose to believe
My words find my muse
Time and time again
Yet this moment
Zero conformity
None of them suit
Your ability
Your wisdom unending
Contagious thoughts
A Charmer of bees
Holding my attention
Well, it isn’t easy
I drift
I dream
I see
My mind and words
forever spinning
You calm me
Bring me peace
What will I do if you ever leave
Never breathe
Visions of your back to me
I can’t handle
I choose to believe
Your need
Similar to mine
Maybe
Probably never
Bravery can handle life
If you must go
I’ve held my breath longer
I’m the Oldest Daughter
The Red Headed Sister
My names weren’t easily obtained
To the bottom of my heart is deep
Wide open
Still recieving
I choose to believe