I try to write
Yet, nothing comes
Too much uncertainty
Consumes my thinking
I’m left with nothing to feel
Come to me, my muse
You know what to do
I’ve nothing to give
Living in darkness
However, it all runs through me
Their pain
His fear
Her joy
Your love
My desire
I’ve nothing left to offer
Come get me
Make them all go away
Allow me to lose myself in you
I’m not there for you today
The fact still escapes me
Never in all my dreams could I see
Not getting to you when you’re in need
I always said I’d lead
Be there for each one of you
Siblings
Parents, too
I’m the Sister
I’m the Daughter
No matter the distance
Today marks another weakness
I’ve allowed distance to limit
All my most inherited instincts
I’m so sorry
I’m here going on about my day
The rest of you, in a waiting room
Keep me posted
I’m failing all of you
Damn, Texas and all the distance
Mom, today, you’re on my mind
Your words
I get lost
What do they mean
Help me understand
I’m trying
Are you alive
Are you dead
Happy
Upset
Careless
Controlled
Mindless
Bold
Partnered
Alone
I need to know
Make it simple
The words floating
Crippling
I sit in awe
What to do
I’m losing you
The life of a girl
And her muse
Oldest Daughter & Red Headed Sister 