Good Morning! I’m hoping the coffee and cookies help to sort out all the frustrations I have brewing inside of me. I have poems to share, but my state of mind has fed them to the wolves. I’m afraid posting anything of value to me would seem less than authentic and just perpetuate the fraudulent emotions I’m working through. My hope is that y’all are having a much better Monday morning. My goal is to share a few poems with you, unfortunately being a poet doesn’t sound like who I am today. Yes, Ms. Audrey has days where she feels unworthy. Boo! I can’t stand myself right now. I can’t even look myself in the eyes. I have allowed myself to keep from writing my truest of feelings.
Choose to disagree
I must still believe
Writing suits me
For years I’ve allowed those voices to decide my decree
Often agreeing that stalling was best for the time being
Focus over here, Audrey, so much requires your devotion
Only writing helps to heal me
Much to say with little support
Authenticity found in silence
Oldest Daughter & Red Headed Sister 
We all feel this way at times. Those who say they don’t are not being truthful.
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I think you’re right, John.
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Just give me the emotions sister…that is where you shine. Just because you post something “sad” one day doesn’t mean you can’t make me laugh so hard I have to wipe my tears the next. That is part of our undiagnosed Biplor-ism haha! Let it go…I need your words they heal me also 💔
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I’m writing you a story. A complete tragedy. Oh Sis. Love you.
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I love a tragic story…bring it✏️
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Don’t feel bad for wanting the compliments. We all need them. That whole “I’m so independent I don’t care what people say” is a myth for most of us. God made us to love and be loved. 🙂
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Thank you for that, Adrienne. Mostly I want an understanding that what I need is acceptable. And part of who I am. I cannot stand the dismissal of it all in my personal life. Not so much the pat on the back that is needed. Y’all do that here quite well!! 🙂 Thank you!!
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Totally get where you’re coming from. I used to feel guilty for needing anything! It’s hard to find the right balance between getting what you need from others and just getting it for yourself. I used to have some real manipulators in my life and I listened to everything they said! They made me feel bad for everything I asked for. I’ll be praying for you.
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Thank you. Yes, its about keeping all that out. 🙂
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Your words are poetry….
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Oh my…well thank you.
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Too bad you didn’t feed them to the dragon…
The professor has mornings like that (mondays) all the time. Is it better now?
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I would’ve, that is to be sure. He’s an elusive dragon and may not like cookies.
I think Monday is to blame, professor. I don’t like that you can relate. That and something about a traffic ticket, maybe. :{ Yes, I think so. (Thanks for asking.)
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I’m sure he does, dadblameit!
😆 A ticket? Was Audith speeding?
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😆 Yes, it seems he does. Peanut butter cookies…
😆 Twas something like that, Duketh. Will you visit me in jail?
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That’s it!
Of course! The professor was in jail around Christmas remember. Mark Malone sprung me.
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I remember!! But you weren’t really in jail, Duke. However, I won’t be either, but wanted to see if you’d visit just the same. 😉
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Oh yes I was!
I’d break you out. 😀
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I don’t really believe you….!
You would…? How? Tell me… 😀
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Well, in the PL, that is.
It would be brutal…
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It would be? Lots of swords, I bet. 😉 Maybe Johnny Val Johnny will sneak through a window and then sing to me!! 😆
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😆 He’d definitely help you! Maybe. Yes, lots of swords and bombs.
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Oh good! I’d like that. 😆
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Although not a cookie, I had a pretzel roll with my coffee this morning…… and as far as drama queens go; it seems to me that drama queens are the ones who usually the most popular people in our country so you are in good company 😉 (Paris Hilton, Miley Cyrus, Madonna, and the list is endless……..) maybe your poetry will one day be read by millions and whenever you have a drama queen moment it will be filmed on TV by the TMZ crew
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And I’ll blame you for being so mean! 😉 LOL
Just the pep talk I needed, Positive Peter.
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I’m here for you with lots of coffee and chocolate biscuits, Audrey 🙂
Heather xxx
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Oh boy, I need to get my orange sneakers out first. I spent all morning having creamer in my coffee, chocolate syrup drizzled in and loads of whipped cream on top. I always drink it black. This is sooooo unlike me. Oh, the calories! Yikes!
On second thought, pull over a blanket and lets chat. I’d rather that anyway. 😉
Audrey xxx
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Sorry that it’s taken me a while to grab my blanket and come for a chat, I do great hugs too!
Heather xxx
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No problem! I’m happy to see you. 🙂
Hope all is well!
Audrey xxx
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Well, but busy I’m afraid! I still haven’t worked out how to add more hours to my day, any ideas? 😆
Heather xxx
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😆 None…but I shall try to figure it out for you, Heather. ~Aud xxx
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Always remember how brave you are….after all you did win in battle of your 4-H steer…..and all the while shaking like a leaf…..but the victor you are!!!!!!
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I’m trying, maternal one. I’m trying.
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Keep up the good work Audrey, the silence can’t win!
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Thanks for the push, Cleo! I won’t let it. 🙂 Hugs!
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Do not silence those words of yours, it would be a tragedy to keep them to yourself.
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Ooo, you know how I’d thrive on a tragedy. 🙂 I won’t just feeling a bit protective of my thoughts at the moment. They will be released, I’m sure, at some point. Thanks for stopping by and for the cheer up, my curious friend. 🙂
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You can’t tell me that peanut butter cookies don’t inspire…I am now inspired to go buy some…..thanks friend:)
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LOL…well I figured since I baked them I should eat them if nothing else. Come on over! 🙂
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O those days….
Yes, I have them as well. Just keep writing Audrey! You are good at it and it does have the power to make you feel better! Sending you lots of love and hugz!
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Thanks, Patty! I wrote all weekend and what came of it was so sad. I don’t feel that it is truly where I am, but it felt good to push through and write the feelings living inside of me.
Thanks for taking the time to comment, Patty. I appreciate you!!
Audrey xx
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In our opinion, what makes a writer a writer, is not the publishing or the accolades, but the impetus (the call) to write.
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Thank you. I could not agree more, actually. The boost I feel from the writing world is fantastic, actually. It’s the personal accolades that I shouldn’t depend on as much, as I do this for myself most of all.
Thanks for the comment and the follow. I look forward to checking out your blog.
Blessings,
Audrey
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