Ann finished with the dishes, even the dirty ones, left in the little sink, found just past the front door of the studio apartment she’d rented from Shelby.
Leaning up against the light green counter, while looking out towards the stove, she exhaled the breath she didn’t realize she was holding. Turns out moving is physically harder than she initially believed.
Why had she?
Did it matter if the stove was clean or not? She didn’t feel like eating anyway.
Ann’s legs weakened. It was a slow slide down the narrow cubbard and onto the kitchen floor.
None of this made sense anyway. It was all too soon.
The grey tile was cold. She laid against it for too long and woke up startled. Ann surprised herself by falling asleep, but the intensity of her dream caused her to jump. She straightened up into a sitting position, while her finger slowly traced the fresh indentions on her cheek.
What time was it…
Just then a lone roach crawled past her and towards the sink.
Great.
It’s just me and him.
Me, him and his tiny little army in the back of the cubbard.
She quickly got off the floor and added bug spray, killer or annihilator to her list of things to pick up at the store, possibly, or maybe one day.
Ann fumbled into her bedroom, after cleaning the bathroom and sitting space, nearly tripping on the step required to enter.
The door hit the wall behind it with a bang and Ann’s body shook. There wasn’t much room for her or anything else, but it would do.
She was thankful Shelby had sent over new and laundered bedding before her arrival. Admittedly, there had been little time for anything else.
She could handle living down the hall from a few roaches for now, but sleeping in dirty and used bedding would’ve only caused her further anxiety. Ann figured she’d cling to the bed’s cleanliness.
She focused on the purple and gold comforter covering the mattress . Was it designed for a tiny apartment bed like this or did the designer, who had carefully chosen the fabric and vision, imagine a grander setting?
She often wondered over people’s intentions.
She watched her fingers comb down the side of the bed, as if not really present in the room. With her foot Ann slid the closet door shut.
Eying her suitcases on the dresser she decided her clothes could wait. Like almost everything else in her life.
Briefly considering, obviously reconciling an internal struggle not to sweep the dust away, and lacking the strength to look the reality of the room in the eye, she made the choice to forgo her bedroom responsibilities for now.
Ann lifted the bottom window and scanned the view in front of her.
A black dog ran sideways across the quiet street with a yelp.
“Get outta here,” an old woman grumbled, while wiping her hands on her apron.
Ann slowly shook her head and held back a giggle, as she watched the dog run back towards town. The woman mumbling something as she turned and headed back into her garden was a pleasant surprise.
Ann smiled. Might have been the first time in months.
She’d go down and introduce herself to the feisty one next door soon. She pulled the curtains away from the window revealing twilight over the overgrown grassy hill in the distance.
She leaned her forehead in slowly and placed the palm of her hands against the cool glass, as her body submitted to the weakness she couldn’t overcome.
This sure was a sleepy town. Not one car passed by in the five minutes her face was stuck to the window pane.
At least the outdoor surroundings brought comfort.
Suddenly, she heard a long howl. It sounded like an animal in pain, and was coming from the south. The cry brought back another familiar sound.
Ann found herself walking towards the bed. Lost in recent events, obviously too painful to revisit, yet needing to forget, her body melting into the covers.
***
This is an old thought of mine from a few years back. Found it while searching for another story I’d written.
Something about this one though…
Why writing of melancholy comforts me I’ll never know. I began this blog because my friends said I was funny and needed to share my humor.
But my soul speaks differently.
What I’ve found is worth so much more. I’ve given myself. I’ve found me. And I’ll be.
Thank you for listening.
It is my hope light continues to shine it’s favor.
♡
It’s stories like this that get to me. I feel for Ann. You touched on something you’re good at writing about, and it shows— the detail, the emotional range. Thank you.
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I don’t know quite what I say, Adam. It means so much to know my writing is seen in such a positive way. Thank you
I feel for Ann, too. The emotions I understand very well and am grateful they come across that way.
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I guess we all write for different reasons. The important part is finding comfort in the words and feelings. I’m glad these stories bring you an element of peace.
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Writing bits and pieces during a feeling I’m having truly helps overcome them, I think. I understand emotions and Ann’s in particular, but I’ve never been completely down and out as she is here. I’ve been fortunate to have rocks to lean on. ♡
Thanks, John
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Nothing like a good ole leaning rock when you need one.
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Yes, large families are blessings.
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😀
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“But my soul speaks differently.” – and that’s OK.
I think there’s a happy ending for Ann and a happy blog for you. If you switch to humor, I’m sure I’d laugh, but what you have shared with us always makes me feel something inside. That’s a rare gift.
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Thank you for believing in this blog of mine. Creating so that you, and others, can feel…well, that’s all I could ever ask for, Dan. I’m elated knowing so.
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A very sad story but convincingly told. The details are superb. I hope Ann eventually finds joy in her new home.
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I like to think joy found Ann. I’ve always preferred the happier ending. Good to see you, Shari
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thank you for this
sweet story
for my nighty night, dear sister!
happiest holidays 2 u 🙂
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Aw, thanks, David. I’m happy to share. Sweet Dreams 🙂
Merry Christmas
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I would tell you I’ve seen better solely to get a rise out of you but it wouldn’t work. Wonderful stuff then, wonderful stuff now.
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Oh, it would work and you know it. However, I’m pretty good at smirking, giggling and walking quickly away. There will always be better waiting, you know. My thoughts are simple not best sellers.
Thank you for reading me, Sir.
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Sunsets are fairly simple as well aren’t they?
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…through my eyes? I’ve about 300 poems that say otherwise. Maybe you’ve read a few? … (((insert a cheesy grin)))
I understand, C
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Cool story – very well written. It’s great to look through old writing and blog entries. So much changes and so much stays the same.
Thanks for sharing.
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Bill, thank you. Yes, I find a lot I haven’t shared here on my blog and think I should, so I do. It’s nice to find growth in a positive direction.
I read some of your bio this evening. I’m a KSU grad, not KU, and lived in TX for quite a long time. We have some similar stomping grounds.
It’s nice to meet you. Merry Christmas.
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Beautifully written intriguing story Ginger, 🌺
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Thanks, Ginger. Means a lot to have you say so. ♡
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yep, I enjoyed this tremendously…like an excerpt from a book. Are you writing a book Audrey? ❤
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I have a book I’ve written, and have several beginnings of ideas. This is just one moment I wrote and didn’t take any further. Glad you enjoyed it.
Thank you, H ♡
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Very much. Put your books out there I love to read my fellow bloggers books. I have a stack either given to me or purchased. Right now I’m reading A Journal for Damned Zlovers by SK Nicholas. It’s really good. ❤️
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SK Nicholas, I know of..very nice. I try my best to buy other blogger’s books, too. I’ve been blessed with a few gifted to me, as well. Very heartwarming.
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speechless – your words is deeply touching:)
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Thank you so much, Mihrank
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