Merry Christmas Eve
Santa’s on his way tonight
Confessing my sin
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My Dearest Santa,
All I want for Christmas this year is for my wish to be heard.
Tell him everything my bashful heart says, but my controlling mind won’t allow. Reassure him there isn’t a word of his I miss or a laugh from his mouth I wish I’d gotten to hear. If I share with you, my secrets, will you convey them appropriately?
Express that my feelings of unworthines are of my own doing, insecurities shining through, and that I want more than anything to break free and be myself completely. Show him the beat of my heart is in rhythm with the universe we share. Would you tell me, if he sighs and then agrees?
There isn’t anything I need for Christmas this year. Nothing more than devotion and adoration to be felt between time and space. Take him everything his heart desires. Calm his heart. Give me his sadness.
My hope is that he feels the warmth of Christmas around him, maybe even my love, but mostly, I need him to feel peace. Recharge his energies and renew his spirit for me, so everyone he surrounds himself with will see the true revelation of his kind heart.
He means the world to me, Santa. I wouldn’t feel safe without his care. My prayer is that I am enough, as I am, this Christmas.
Merry Christmas, Santa.
Yours, always,
Audrey Dawn
Oldest Daughter & Red Headed Sister 
This is a great piece of writing ~ poetic and beautiful…and such a worthy Christmas wish… I think Santa heard you and I hope you had a great Christmas day ~ and are getting ready to get your black-dress out for New Year’s Eve. Take care Audrey ~
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Dalo, I thank you for thinking so, truly. Words that were on my heart last week. So, you think Santa heard me, huh? Good. I was hoping he would. My Christmas was cheerful. I hope all was well in Seattle, too. My wish is that you received everything on your list. My black dress? Hmm. Yes, she’s ready, of course. 🙂 You take care, as well, Sir. ♡
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🙂 Enjoy your NYE !
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🙂 You too, Dalo!
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Lovely, Audrey! I hope you had a great Christmas and that it was one for the memory books. 🙂
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Thanks, Amy! My Christmas has been lovely. Hoping the same for you, of course. Enjoy your week.
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That was quite beautiful. Yes, I’d say: hold nothing back! Totally be yourself. Is it hard a bit? I think I know what you mean. (I know I probably asked before…but who is your muse?)
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Thank you, Duke. Myself is all I know how to be, actually. Not hard, but yes, challenging. I’m glad you can relate, a bit. We’ve discussed that before, so I know I’m in good company. (Yes, you have and I’ve told you…I should really find a better confident, you know.) *eats another sugar cookie*
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A sugar cookie! You know, Audith, you’re making me very hungry the sudden. *runs upstairs for breakfast* I know…I was just checking is all…
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Yes, I made them earlier this week. *wonders who’s cooking breakfast upstairs* Did you eat bacon? Oh, you know, huh? So you’re confident you’ve remembered?
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Nice. Well, I had to cook it of course! Now, I”m forgetting what I had. Something with protein, though. Promise.
Mostly, that is. You could say it, if you want.
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Maybe you had eggs. Over easy with toast and bacon. Cherry tea, as well. Protein for growing muscles, right? Have they grown since?
Yes, I could, but do you want me to risk his running off? He could, you know.
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Yes, that’s probably it! (But no on the tea. Fresh squeezed orange juice, probably.) Yes, I think so. Plus, it tastes better-things with protein.
Yeah, that seems the sort of thing he’d do, huh?
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Yes, probably….I should have written a better breakfast, Duketh. You agreed far too easily. I was mistaken, twas the grits you had, I think. With loads of butter and sugar, with a side of pancakes smothered in peanut butter and a glass of grapefruit juice. (OJ? You drink a lot of that, huh?) Protein always tastes better, says the daughter of a cattlemen.
Yea, it does. Sticks around just long enough to stir up trouble.
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*laughs* I think you think I’m like 300 professorish pounds! (I kinda do at times, yes.)
Sounds like a decent chap.
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*sparkles* Hahaha. *stone cold sober* Well, if you are, may I sit on your lap and feed you as if you’re an Italian mob boss? I’ve always wanted to do that… (Knew it.)
I suppose he can be.
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*laughs* What a thing to want to do!
Ooo, you hate him…interesting.
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Sounds fun, right??!! Right? Say yes, Duke. *laughs*
Never!! Well, he can make me sad.
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Yes.
How?
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You agreed. Okay so, not sure how this comment didn’t make it to my notifications, but I came upon it. So are you 300 professorish pounds yet? Cause I kinda wanna try this… *smiles brightly*
His constant lying has lead to my inability to trust, for starters.
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Well…yes…just because. Though I’m not. How’s that?
What you call a lie is just a variation on the truth, or, actually, the truth in a different way.
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Seems fine, I suppose. However, it doesn’t feel the same when you only humor me.
Ahh, so now you’re a lawyer.
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If I weighed that much, I’d die, I think.
*laughs* How about an actor of sorts?
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No you wouldn’t really die. I mean not really, you know. However, if you weighed that much it would assure me that you do like someone spooning you pasta into your mouth. *laughs*
*laughs* Okay. Hmm. You’re acting like a lawyer? Are you an actor? I mean, do you do more than voices?
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Yes! And didn’t exercise! Unless I was Vince Wilfork.
Voices? What voices?
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Who’s that…does he need feeding, too. *giggle*
The ones you once told you did, Sir. *spell checks the word liar one more time*
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He’s the Patriots NT! My favorite player too. Him and Edelman.
Umm…I never told you that!
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Oh! Wondering if you expected me to know that, Duke. Are they nice men? Good players? I thought you liked Brady best? *confused look*
Yes you did….did too. I remember you telling me you could do specific voices really well, Duketh. We talked about it.
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Well….Brady is no. 3 or 4. I think Edelman is my 2nd fav. And Wilfork is my 1st!
I do sorta recall that…
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Ok…I will never remember any of that, I fear.
I don’t believe it now, anyway, so carry on, Duke.
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Such a lovely, heart-felt Christmas wish. It’s a poem in a letter to Santa. I hope you had a wonderful and warm Christmas, Aud 🙂
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I’m glad you see the poetry inside this letter, Gus. You’re one in a million. I’m not sure why you’ve made me blush with your observation, but you have nonetheless. My Christmas was lovely, thank you. I hope your Christmas was nice, as well. 🙂 My hope is someone made you something fantastic to eat.
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So good to hear that your Christmas was lovely! Mine was as well. Being together with loved ones — and, yes, there were fantastic eats on the table. I’m very lucky to have family members who are great cooks.
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I’m glad to hear you had plenty of good food. Just as it should be, I think.
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Merry Christmas oldest
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Merry Christmas, Big Brother….Love you.
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Wow. This is incredibly lovely. I’ll be praying your wish comes true! At the very least, you deserve that. Merry Christmas once more, Audrey. 🙂
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It came from the heart, Poet. May your wishes come true, as well. Thanks for being you… Merry Christmas, Victor.
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I thought so! It’s such a genuine piece of writing. 🙂
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Aww. I think you’re genuine and I find that so very refreshing. I hope your Christmas was lovely, Poet. 🙂
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Awe, I really appreciate that. It was great. Just a restful, low-key holiday. How was yours? 🙂
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Mine was nice, thanks. Quiet, however, I didn’t mind, as I was up so late the night before with insomnia and chattering with my siblings. I think I was excited about Santa. 😉
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Oh, that’s nice (chattering with your siblings, not the insomnia). Hahaha. Right? That must have been why I couldn’t sleep, either. 😉
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You couldn’t sleep either? See…now I like knowing that I wasn’t alone at 2am. I hope Santa was good to you.
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I’m pretty much always up at that hour, so if you are, you’re never alone. Hope that doesn’t sound creepy. Sometimes it’s hard to know how sentences will be taken online. Hahaha.
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You don’t come across as creepy at all. Unless, you want to, if so then I’ll change your voice in my head from confident deep thinker to a creepy stalker sort. 🙂 Or maybe not….!!! Yikes!
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Hahaha. I’d prefer confident deep thinker. Yeah, I think that’s better. 🙂
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Yes, definitely better. Giggle. 🙂
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Beautiful, Aud. Merry Christmas.
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Thank you, Mark. Merry Christmas. xx
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May the Christmas spirit enlighten you,
Dispel the Darkness from you life,
Bless you with happiness and peace
Merry Christmas!!!!
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Thank you, Mihran. What a kind prayer…
Merry Christmas to you, as well.
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What a beautiful Christmas wish – I’ll be wishing that your wish is fulfilled and your prayer answered in the most beautiful way…
Merry Christmas Audrey Dawn
Michael
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Thank you, Michael. May all our wishes come true. Merry Christmas… xx
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I wish I may.,..I wish I might…..!!! love you ODRHS. Merry Christmas!
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Christmas won’t be the same without you, Mom. Merry Christmas! 🙂
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Lovely!
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Thank you, Penny. Merry Christmas!!
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